Hello Everyone,
I know many people have been waiting on this story to come out, and I give you my apologies for taking so long. Well as you all know recently I had a encounter with the Lord where the Lord healed my body from Guillain-Barre syndrome, what GBS (Guillain-Barre syndrome) is, is a disorder in which the body's immune system attacks part of the peripheral nervous system. The first symptoms of this disorder include varying degrees of weakness or tingling sensations in the legs. In many instances the weakness and abnormal sensations spread to the arms and upper body. GBS has killed many, and left many disabled for life. My cousin Gus Dean has had GBS for 8 years and still has not recover, and some recover fully in about a years time. But as you know Jesus healed me and here is my story.
"Suffering comes before glory, and a cross before a crown". This was my slogan and it couldn't be more true. In the midst of all the madness, I was looking right into the eyes of the Lion and asking the Lamb to come work, an as He looked back at me with that gaze tells me I am loved suddenly I knew my King had me. For every season of this life that we walk in has trails and test that await us. Some harder than others, some easy, some seem so big that you can't see a way around it, some are so small that you forget its even there, some friends just come and go like the seasons of the life, but the revelation you receive in the testing of our souls will last for eternity, always look for the word of Lord and the light in the dark room. The spirit of revelation lays beneath brokenness and hard times, so keep the faith and never stop running. No matter how bad things get on this earth and in our lives Jesus is still God therefore we win. So I looked into the middle of the storm and I found wisdom looking right back at me and was filled with joy and peace. Everything He does no matter how big or small is beautiful. I trust in the one who makes the invisible visible. Full of compassion, He took on our frame, leading us into the beauty of His name.
I came down with this sickness around the first of March, I had a really bad cold for a little over a week, it was thee worst cold I have ever had in my life. But with out health insurance I was not about to go to the doctor so I just took normal cold meds drunk allot of water and slept allot. After a week of having this cold i noticed that I did not feel any better, in fact I was feeling worse. I noticed that I was starting to get a shape pain in my left knee, a few hours after noticing this the pain was sharpening and moving to my right knee, so i just took some Ibuprofen and went to sleep. The next morning when I woke up my feet felt like they where asleep, there was a tingling in both feet and pain in all my joints. I knew something was not write when it progressed all day up my legs, noticing my arms and legs were getting really weak, and my whole body was feeling cold I went to the ER. After sitting in the waiting room for about 6 hours, all they did was test my sugar and told me i could be having a reaction to my cold meds and sent me home. The next few days I just slept and drunk allot of water. Four days later my face was numb all over, i could not move my lips, I could hardly blink, and was in so much pain that I went four days without sleep. I chose to go to another Doctor, he ran allot of test and came up with nothing at all. He sent me to a neurologist at a local ER. Soon after I got there they told me that they were afraid for my life and i was going to be in the hospital for a long time. A few hours later they told me it was GBS, and my heart sunk. I knew how serious it was and how painful it was going to be.
That morning as i laid in the bed I felt the peace and comfort of God overshadow my bed and I slept for the first time in four days. When I woke up I could not feel any of my skin, and i could not out any pressure on my feet at all. But no fear hit my heart at all, I knew i was in the Lord's hands and that He had me. Little did i know He was going to use this event to change my whole life.
One of the leaders at the House of Prayer (IHOP) in Kansas City, had a encounter with the Lord where she was caught up into the heaven and saw the Lord working on the brides heart as she was laying on a hospital bed, the Lord said He was "reviving Her and getting the toxins out." I had no idea how much this would really be true in my life when I heard it, but just a month or so after it was spoken I found myself laying on a hospital bed about to go under the surgery of the Lord.
"Pain has been to me a sweet companion, leading me on a journey into the mystery of the Man who walked this road before me."
A few years after I had gotten saved, I was really hurt by the spirit of religion, my church was full of young people who had been set on fire for Jesus, and it was also full of elders who did not like us at all. After two years the pastor's falls into adultery the church cast them out, and runs their names into the ground then splits down the middle everyone talking about everyone, making up lies on one another. Rumors where flying around about me that I was in Kansas City backslidden and depressed. This put such a bad taste in my mouth against the church. I had little love in my heart for the bride of Christ.
So here I am for the first time in my life laying in a bed helpless. I could not do anything on my own, i couldn't use my lips to talk, all my words were mumbled and no one could really understand what I was saying, I couldn't walk, feel how hot or cold a room was, all my strength was gone, I couldn't even close my eye all the way, eating and drinking was a work out for me. People would come into my room see me and just start crying because of my condition. I felt useless. It was in that place when I was brought to the lowest of lows where the Lord began to work.
See suffering comes before Glory and a cross before a crown, if you want to follow Jesus you must die to yourself and your own abilities to do a,b, and c and learn to trust in who he is. I found myself the first night in the hospital feeling sorry for myself and wanting it all to be over and in the midst of that the Lord came and met me. The lights went off and I looked up and said "You are God, your leadership is perfect, you have never lead anyone wrong. You are in control of all things, here I am teach me what you will." I just began to think upon the divinity of Jesus, and as I began to think upon who He is the worry, fear, self-pity, false humility just began to fall right off of me. I came to grips with the suffering that I was in the midst of and I simply prayed "Jesus teach me what you will". As I began to look at Him I
could feel Him looking at her (His bride), and I am going "Jesus you are beautiful"
and Jesus is going "jonathan, not only am I beautiful look how beautiful and lovely my bride is." "Isn't she beautiful watch her love me." This would take me so off guard because I really did not believe that Jesus thought the church was beautiful right now. I thought He was mostly angry at her and He only really loved her because He had to, and at the end of the day He was going to send most of the people in the Church to hell. As this began to happen, nurse after nurse would come in and for some reason they were mostly spirit filled believers. They would just encourage me and pray over me, and as they did it just began to slowly soften my heart to the bride, my phone was ringing off the hook with churches full of people praying over me, believers from all over the nation started sending me emails, people whom I did not know were contacting me, and letting me know that they were praying, and Jesus was using them to show me that the Bride of Christ is beautiful and that in the midst of all the funk that is in her, He is moving and He is working and she is coming to life. Jesus broke my heart for the bride and brought me to repentance over the period of a few weeks and now I can truly say the bride of Christ though dark is being called lovely by her Husband and she is getting the water of the word poured on her and she is coming to life. Jesus is waking His bride up in this nation.
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Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Matthew 24:7
24:7 For nation will rise up in arms against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. And there will be famines and earthquakes in various places.
So I bought a Interlinear Bible and was reading Matthew 24 and when I came to verse seven I was stopped in my tracks because it the Interlinear Bible instead of being "earthquakes in various places" it states "there will be earthquakes against places". The wheels in my mind starting turning quickly, as question after question ran through my mind. "does this mean every earthquake is the judgment of God?" "He really chooses where earthquakes hit?". I was stopped in my tracks with the intensity of this all. So I went on a word study. Wouldn't you know it my Bible teachers were right its truly the best way to understand the word.
The word is this: kata kata
Pronunciation: kat-ah'
Origin: a primary particle
Reference: -
PrtSpch: prep
In Greek: kat 85, kata 325, kay 61
In NET: according to 68, against 49, in 42, by 36, according 22, every 13, privately 9, throughout 8, with 8, as 6, on 5, of 4, like 4, from 4, to 4, year after year 3, daily 3, from house to house 3, in accordance with 3, in keeping with 3, just as 3, off 3, along 3, Day after day 3, opposed 3, about 3, According to 2, About 2, During 2, Every 2, because of 2, further 2, due 2, after 1, where 1, alone 1, accords with 1, accordingly 1, with reference to 1, wherever 1, one at a time 1, along the coast 1, aside 1, at 1, as expressed in 1, as displayed in 1, when 1, as a result of 1, one house after another 1, To 1, Before 1, By 1, At 1, Against 1, present 1, prescribed by 1, over 1, outward 1, On 1, This accords with 1, In regard to 1, In 1, Each 1, orderly manner 1, attention 1, based on 1, town after town 1, in accepting 1, in accordance 1, through 1, from such 1, on the basis 1, such 1, near 1, in detail 1, in the various 1, in various 1, in regard to 1, in line with 1, in every 1, meets in 1, for 1, following 1, circumstances 1, correspond to 1, case 1, what 1, one after another 1, beyond 1, corresponding to 1, on the basis of 1, face to face 1, facing 1, various 1, each 1, day after day 1, since 1, just as we are 1
In AV: according to 107, after 61, against 58, in 36, by 27, daily + 2250 15, as 11, misc 165
Count: 480
Definition: 1) down from, through out
2) according to, toward, along
a primary particle; (prepositionally) down (in place or time), in
varied relations (according to the case (genitive, dative or
accusative) with which it is joined):-about, according as (to),
after, against, (when they were) X alone, among, and, X apart, (even,
like) as (concerning, pertaining to touching), X aside, at, before,
beyond, by, to the charge of, (charita-)bly, concerning, + covered,
(dai-)ly, down, every, (+ far more) exceeding, X more excellent, for,
from ... to, godly, in(-asmuch, divers, every, -to, respect of), ...
by, after the manner of, + by any means, beyond (out of) measure, X
mightily, more, X natural, of (up-)on (X part), out (of every), over
against, (+ your) X own, + particularly, so, through(-oughout,
-oughout every), thus, (un-)to(-gether, -ward), X uttermost,
where(-by), with. In composition it retains many of these
applications, and frequently denotes opposition, distribution, or
intensity.
After reading that I asked myself "why did the NKJV use "diverse", the NIV use "various", and the Interlinear use "against""? I found myself at a stand still. Not knowing where to turn or what to think. I starting thinking of the ultimate question, "God who are you?"
As I went back and forth with the thought that God causes every earthquake and thinking of the recent events of Haiti, not wanting to just say "this was judgment, God killed all those people". Which I know God judges and the word is very clear on that, but there was no voice before hand saying, "Flee because judgement is coming!" in context to judgment in the bible there is always a clear voice that comes before hand saying judgment is coming, and I had heard nothing of that coming before hand? But then again the bible says it will happen, so does their need to be a voice? Like I said the wheels were turning. Then I ran across Romans 6:23 and it says that the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life. The reason destruction and death hits the earth is because humanity choses sin and death over God. What happened to the nation of Haiti is the result of sin? So both us and God are the reasons earthquakes destroy nations like Haiti? I know Haiti had it coming being in covenant with Satan and all, but sin is sin right?
If God planned every earthquake I would be okay with it. I don't have offense against Him for doing so. We are a wicked people and deserve nothing less than to be judged. But why does the bibles differ on the way they use the words? Does God plan it or is it just part of the earth groaning for the return of Jesus? The closer we get the more it groans, so the more earthquakes happen. But does God direct it? Yes God directes it. But so did they, so do we, and so does the earth. The word "kata" means "against" and "diverse" so could the translation be this, "there will be earthquakes against diverse places?" Meaning this its against them from God, as judgment against sin, and the earth groaning for the return of Jesus. We cause, so does the earth, and does God. Where it hits and how big is not up to me and God allows and directs all things according to Job.
Does there have to be a prophetic voice saying this coming? No there doesn't, Jesus says these will come. So we as believers have to begin to sound the alarm according to what Jesus says is coming to the earth. If I truly believe we are living in the day of the Lord's return then I have no other choice but to become a voice of crying in the wilderness "prepare the way of the Lord". How do I do that? Live my life eating the scrolls and soaking in prayer and fasting.
Amen.
By. Jonathan.
So I bought a Interlinear Bible and was reading Matthew 24 and when I came to verse seven I was stopped in my tracks because it the Interlinear Bible instead of being "earthquakes in various places" it states "there will be earthquakes against places". The wheels in my mind starting turning quickly, as question after question ran through my mind. "does this mean every earthquake is the judgment of God?" "He really chooses where earthquakes hit?". I was stopped in my tracks with the intensity of this all. So I went on a word study. Wouldn't you know it my Bible teachers were right its truly the best way to understand the word.
The word is this: kata kata
Pronunciation: kat-ah'
Origin: a primary particle
Reference: -
PrtSpch: prep
In Greek: kat 85, kata 325, kay 61
In NET: according to 68, against 49, in 42, by 36, according 22, every 13, privately 9, throughout 8, with 8, as 6, on 5, of 4, like 4, from 4, to 4, year after year 3, daily 3, from house to house 3, in accordance with 3, in keeping with 3, just as 3, off 3, along 3, Day after day 3, opposed 3, about 3, According to 2, About 2, During 2, Every 2, because of 2, further 2, due 2, after 1, where 1, alone 1, accords with 1, accordingly 1, with reference to 1, wherever 1, one at a time 1, along the coast 1, aside 1, at 1, as expressed in 1, as displayed in 1, when 1, as a result of 1, one house after another 1, To 1, Before 1, By 1, At 1, Against 1, present 1, prescribed by 1, over 1, outward 1, On 1, This accords with 1, In regard to 1, In 1, Each 1, orderly manner 1, attention 1, based on 1, town after town 1, in accepting 1, in accordance 1, through 1, from such 1, on the basis 1, such 1, near 1, in detail 1, in the various 1, in various 1, in regard to 1, in line with 1, in every 1, meets in 1, for 1, following 1, circumstances 1, correspond to 1, case 1, what 1, one after another 1, beyond 1, corresponding to 1, on the basis of 1, face to face 1, facing 1, various 1, each 1, day after day 1, since 1, just as we are 1
In AV: according to 107, after 61, against 58, in 36, by 27, daily + 2250 15, as 11, misc 165
Count: 480
Definition: 1) down from, through out
2) according to, toward, along
a primary particle; (prepositionally) down (in place or time), in
varied relations (according to the case (genitive, dative or
accusative) with which it is joined):-about, according as (to),
after, against, (when they were) X alone, among, and, X apart, (even,
like) as (concerning, pertaining to touching), X aside, at, before,
beyond, by, to the charge of, (charita-)bly, concerning, + covered,
(dai-)ly, down, every, (+ far more) exceeding, X more excellent, for,
from ... to, godly, in(-asmuch, divers, every, -to, respect of), ...
by, after the manner of, + by any means, beyond (out of) measure, X
mightily, more, X natural, of (up-)on (X part), out (of every), over
against, (+ your) X own, + particularly, so, through(-oughout,
-oughout every), thus, (un-)to(-gether, -ward), X uttermost,
where(-by), with. In composition it retains many of these
applications, and frequently denotes opposition, distribution, or
intensity.
After reading that I asked myself "why did the NKJV use "diverse", the NIV use "various", and the Interlinear use "against""? I found myself at a stand still. Not knowing where to turn or what to think. I starting thinking of the ultimate question, "God who are you?"
As I went back and forth with the thought that God causes every earthquake and thinking of the recent events of Haiti, not wanting to just say "this was judgment, God killed all those people". Which I know God judges and the word is very clear on that, but there was no voice before hand saying, "Flee because judgement is coming!" in context to judgment in the bible there is always a clear voice that comes before hand saying judgment is coming, and I had heard nothing of that coming before hand? But then again the bible says it will happen, so does their need to be a voice? Like I said the wheels were turning. Then I ran across Romans 6:23 and it says that the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life. The reason destruction and death hits the earth is because humanity choses sin and death over God. What happened to the nation of Haiti is the result of sin? So both us and God are the reasons earthquakes destroy nations like Haiti? I know Haiti had it coming being in covenant with Satan and all, but sin is sin right?
If God planned every earthquake I would be okay with it. I don't have offense against Him for doing so. We are a wicked people and deserve nothing less than to be judged. But why does the bibles differ on the way they use the words? Does God plan it or is it just part of the earth groaning for the return of Jesus? The closer we get the more it groans, so the more earthquakes happen. But does God direct it? Yes God directes it. But so did they, so do we, and so does the earth. The word "kata" means "against" and "diverse" so could the translation be this, "there will be earthquakes against diverse places?" Meaning this its against them from God, as judgment against sin, and the earth groaning for the return of Jesus. We cause, so does the earth, and does God. Where it hits and how big is not up to me and God allows and directs all things according to Job.
Does there have to be a prophetic voice saying this coming? No there doesn't, Jesus says these will come. So we as believers have to begin to sound the alarm according to what Jesus says is coming to the earth. If I truly believe we are living in the day of the Lord's return then I have no other choice but to become a voice of crying in the wilderness "prepare the way of the Lord". How do I do that? Live my life eating the scrolls and soaking in prayer and fasting.
Amen.
By. Jonathan.
Friday, January 1, 2010
Kiss of death
My eyes are glazed and set. My lips are as cold as the night air. My muscles are relaxed. For I am resting in peace, but I am much alive. warm but cold. I'm still but running, free but bound by one. I am a living death, my heart is burning. my soul is crying, my flesh is rotting. I am a man possessed, I embrase my cross, I kiss the nails. I thank them that persecute me for it drives the nails deeper. deeper into my hand and into my feet.my screams are those of joy, for I am coming closer to you. as I die I become alive. as my body is bound to this tree I become free, I am a living death. dead to myself but alive in Him.
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